Published October 17, 2009 04:00 pm - Chemo is different than radiation.
Chemo, the time passes and you are not so restricted that you cannot pick up a book or, listen to your IPOD or watch a TV show or even talk to someone.
DAY 19: Breast Cancer Journal
Radiation
Chemo is different than radiation.
Chemo, the time passes and you are not so restricted that you cannot pick up a book or, listen to your IPOD or watch a TV show or even talk to someone.
Radiation – you are alone in a rather large room and listening to the sounds that surround you.
You must remain still and in the same position each time.
You watch the beam and the movement around you. Occasionally the machine starts and stops and moves around you and once in awhile you will hear, “Are you doing ok?”
Yes, I am here, just lying here and waiting.
Waiting seems to be the biggest word in my vocabulary at this point in my life.
It is not an inherent skill of mine, something that needs fine tuning for sure.
I once said the Lord’s Prayer 596 times when getting and MRI done.
I knock each one off the calendar after it is done. I have a permanent tattoo on my chest from where they marked me for radiation.
On radiation days, I would get in my car and race to radiation and then race back.
Early on with radiation I recall several people coming into the room and there I was half exposed as they discussed my case, Yohoo, I am here, could you either cover me up or turn away and talk.
This isn’t the Mona Lisa smiling at you right now.